The Aftermath

Benjamin F Sautter
Aug 9
1 min read

The trauma I have lived through seems to be over.

It’s not forgotten, but I don’t feel it anymore.

I still live everyday as two different men.

I've come to accept that's how it may always be.

The new word in my vocabulary is, integration.

I still don’t always recognize which of the two men I am.

My wife can see the difference.

I can see them clearly when she points them out.

There's still so much for both of us to learn.

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